The present writer does not wish to portray the following matter as a complaint, but rather as an area in which we as humans in this day and age (2020) can grow, bringing more life into life, rather than furthering certain destructive and alienating tendencies that seem to exist.
The matter in question is what we generally call experience and our relationship to it. To elaborate further, first we’ll take a look at what exactly we are calling “experience” here:
What does it really mean to live an integral life?
The following text is written I-less as a practice of opening up to the non-ownership of thoughts, feelings, awareness and experiences. Instead of pretending and then clinging to ownership of perspectives and all that is linked to those perspectives, this practice aims at perceiving awareness and thus its perspectives as unattached to a physical entity, a self or an ego. It places awareness in an open space, not bound to the interior space behind the eyes. That which creates sounds (or writes) is certainly a physical entity, but the origin of the awareness of this physical entity and its capabilities to develop a self-sense are thought to be arising in a way that is only partially physical. The self, one could say is a partial or fractured view, created by a limited perspective (which all human perspectives are) of a universal Sentience or Self. The sense of ownership of this small, fractured self could thus be thought of as a great fallacy, and can lead to all kinds of pathologies if clung to, too intensely. While this partial view certainly has its merits and is useful for – for example the survival of the physical entity creating this very perspective, thus perpetuating life and with it the prospect of growth into ever bigger and bigger perspectives – but if growth is really to happen this limited perspective must also be transcended, seen for its smallness and fractured-ness. And practicing speaking, thinking, communicating without using self-references (the word I or any other similar work-around) is one way to loosen the habitual ownership-mentality with reference to awareness. A little more about this here.
What are the mechanisms of change?
Do we have to be running around randomly lunging ourselves into the next “transformative experience”, the next “transformative yoga class”, only to find ourselves with yet another powerful memory but the same mind-set as we started out with? Catching glimpses of the future or of our potentials is not enough to release into them, to step into that future, to fully express it. So what is?
The one thing that stood out to me the most when I recently read Ken Wilber’s “The Atman Project”, was the way he described the process of growth in terms of Eros and Thanatos and how it was just opposite of what I had imagined. So let’s recap for a moment: